Honestly this is probably my last post about this because I need to get a grip of reality. He doesn’t want me in his life. I can’t force that out of someone. I’ll get over it eventually. It hurts, bad, but I can’t keep trying, and hoping, and wishing, that we can ever be okay.

The real reason I’m posting this, however, is because you have truly given me a reason to give up on love completely.
- I’ve been through terrible terrible things. Terrible guy experiences. I still kept trying to believe in it though. Even if my hole life is telling me I shouldn’t believe in love, I still believe in it like little kids believe in Santa Claus.
This relationship was a great relationship. Best relationship I’ve ever been in my entire life. Now it’s not the breakup that made me feel this way. I understand completely people break up and feelings change. But this wasn’t even a bad break up and I still managed to 1. Ruin your life 2. Be forgotten by you 3. Be replaced in your life after a few days 4. Make you so unhappy 5. Be kicked out of your life. 6. End up completely crushed by all of the above

For some reason I don’t think that should happen with your best relationship. At all. Especially because it was a very easy breakup.

So there you have it. I am completely giving up on love. Emotions are officially turned off, again. No more letting people into my life. I quit. I’m done. I honestly can’t continue to be hurt day after day by one feeling. A feeling that no longer exists in my mind.
I am to tired and to sad to believe in what made me this tired and this sad.
Honestly I just give up and quit.

I genuinely hope you are happy, though.