Feelings, or no feelings?
I try so hard to believe that this time will be okay. I try so hard to make myself not fall for people as hard as I do. I try so hard to believe love is sucha good thing with a great result.

I am in such conflict with myself.
I want to believe, but I literally just can’t anymore. After all of this, how can I?? And shutting off emotions is the greatest thing that there is. But, then I start to get butterflies when being around this guy, and he makes things seem alright. I would love to be able to love and trust him, but I just don’t think I can let myself do that anymore..
I should probably end it before it begins… I just don’t want to.
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